For Trae & Those He Left Behind

Yesterday we shared a meal and laughed with our brother. Today we are washing his blood out of our clothes and asking God to forgive his murderer, whoever and wherever he is. The sky, like a cold gray funeral sheet, is stretched out above the orchards where we all used to feel sheltered–above the peaceful orchards where once I wandered in search of solitude.

If we knew what was going to happen tomorrow, what would we do differently today?

The day before yesterday he wore a teeshirt that said, “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, until the day I die.” Yesterday he was getting ready to go on a trip, not knowing that he was about to take the ultimate trip. Yesterday we all spoke of love and war and the vast ocean of mystery that separates us from the distant, golden shore of eternity. Someone said, “I guess we won’t know until we get there.”

I guess he knows now, and I’m jealous. What does Jesus look like, Trae?

There are no goodbyes in God’s family…

See you at home, brother.

17 thoughts on “For Trae & Those He Left Behind”

  1. Just heartbreaking. God bless all of you who love him. May God send his angels to wrap their wings around you and fill you with His love.

  2. May God give you peace though your loss. And will meet Trae again when we are all called home. R.I.P. Trae till we meet again. ❤ ❤

  3. Didn’t know Trae but he sounds like a sweet soul now with his Savior! You are all being thought of ans prayed for during this difficult time. Blessings to his friends and family.

  4. Unfortunately I have lived this moment you are living. As the stepmother of a 21 year old young man shot in cold blood, I applaud you for the choice you have made. How you cope with this horrible loss in the days to come depends largely on the immediate choice of hate or forgiveness. May God touch each family member and friend individually in the days and years to come.

  5. Beautifully said! Thank you for your tribute. Trae would be pleased at all the glory God is getting through his death. Was so pleased that even the news spoke of his deep faith in God and desire to serve in Jesus name.

  6. I grew up with Trae… he was a great guy. What a beautiful commemorative piece. Prayers for you, your friends, and his family. 😦

    1. Same to you, dear… You didn’t have to know our brother well to appreciate him, but you knew him much better than I did… Sorry for your loss, for his family, and for my friends who were with him at the end… Also for the young man who carries the blame in this tragedy.

  7. God Bless you young ones, we so appreciated and loved Trae here in CA, please know we’ve been praying for you as you deal with the hard memories 😢💔🙏🏻

  8. Emily, this is a beautiful, well-written, moving tribute to Trae. I’m his mother’s sister in PA. His grandfather used to frequently sing the original version of this song. May the Lord bless you and your team as you go forward in the work of the Kingdom!!!

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